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Rain and Resilience

6.45am at the table in the front room ( I have been awake since 5.30am) You don’t go to church or a psychotherapist – you go for a walk and feel better. Bjork I woke up completely dressed, the cotton fishnet tights making for a sweaty nights sleep. I am totally exhausted from care work and

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What next ?

7.16am ( sat at the table up since 5.45am) I am really fed up. I have bitten all my nails off, I am afraid to stand on the scales in the bathroom because I keep eating and eating and eating. I am depressed. I am depressed with the continuous rain. I am depressed with uncertainty

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Sheets of rain

7.50am ( sitting under blankets on the sofa) There are sheets of rain. Heavy rain. Rain that literally drenches. Rain the soaks the valley. Rain that makes everything sodden and muddy and grey and damp. The washing machine spins the dirty sheets from Naoise bed and beeps at me that it has completed its cycle.

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Soggy Saturday

10.14 am (at the table in the front room daydreaming out the window) It is strangely quiet for a Saturday morning, the washing machine is churning its way through yet another pile of washing. Always reliable. Always comforting to hear the cycle. I slipped Naoise snuffly pillow into the wash. He is at the Incredible

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Lines

15.29pm ( at the table in the front room) The waist band on his pyjamas must be too tight; it has left an imprint all around his body. Lines of red. He is asleep, oblivious to my observations. I know his skin and his body. His body. His cells still and will always remain within

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Being Nurse

6.55am ( at the table in the front room) The sky is blue with dawn. I have been up since six. I went to bed early, exhausted. I read two chapters of the Moomins with Naoise. I wish I had a magic hat that could conjure up a cloud to float upon. All the interview

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We all need a mum

10.55am ( at the studio) We all need a mum. We all need love. We all need patience. We all need someone to listen. We all need someone to care. We all need love that is unconditional. We all need connection. We are all connected. We all need a sympathetic ear. We all need to

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“Not fit to turn a fish out in”

22.22pm ( sitting on the sofa) I have been trying to find a bit of peace to write this today. It is now sleep time. Everyone is sleeping. Naoise wanted me to put his arm around his body and not to go away for too long. Stay Mummy Stay, Arm around, Arm Around. I reassured him

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Sore

7.31 am ( awake since 5am sat on the sofa downstairs) My stomach is cramping and my lower back aches. I hate periods. I wish I could say that they don’t have a detrimental affect on my life, but they do. I feel swollen, heavy, sore, and tired. I am glad though that my period

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